桌子上的悲剧

如果太过安静，就会被忽略存在，所以一直以来习惯安静，承认吧，受不了世俗。

其实做宅女也不错，以前笑别人沉寂在自己的幻想里是逃避现实的表现，现在轮到自己了，又是怎样呢？

总觉得自己的时间过得好快，只是没有所谓的充实，一切看来还是毫无意义。 
努力地重复同样的事情，祈求老天不会让我迷失自己……

被捧在手心，却学会不了坚强 。
至始至终不曾由衷相信任何人，也许从未想过要看清自己。

大四，写在告别前！

想一想，我们都很累，夜深了，人静了，但凡有点心思的人，总会很晚入睡，失眠，焦虑，连我们自己都不知道是因为什么，不知道为什么总是想那么多。

有时候我在想。我知道。我不是最苦最难的。同样。我也不是最快乐最开心的。
我没有动人的故事，只有真实的写照...

我在理科大学，念着第四年药剂学系，今年22岁。这应该是我这辈子最骄傲的事情，我想。
没有『致青春里』热情迎接的学长，也不像卷着脸盆席子排着长队的合伙人。

拿着钥匙打开门，迎接我的是一个铺满灰尘。
我所憧憬的大学生活被突如其来拥挤的环境击毙。
那一刻，我有一种被学校主页上来回滚动的坑爹照片出卖的感觉。
我终于明白为什么肯德基的汉堡远比图片要小，美图秀秀的痘总比真人要少。

吱呀的老木床和锈迹斑斑的门窗，伴随着无力的风扇声，

记不得每个人的青涩的面庞和名字，但那些来自遥远城市的少年们南来北往的却就这样成为朋友。 

我们总是在欺骗与被骗中生活，20岁之前，我显然高估了老师的智商。

他们试图为我们构造一个完美的大学梦，并总在我们做模拟卷子的时候，苦口婆心的说着：“大学很轻松，你想干嘛就干嘛。”

好吧，也许我在整理铺盖卷的时候就应该意识到，我选了一个与医学相提并论的专业，

其苦不堪言指数为五星。

在一周三十多几节课的压迫下，我还要面对网络上各位昔日同窗“今天没有课，好开心，耶！”的刷屏，熊熊的嫉妒之火在眼中燃烧之余，却发现还有许多生物学名词，化学方程式没有解。

那时候忙到吃完午饭即使只剩半小时也要争分夺秒的午睡，忙到双休日没有机会回家，但是也忙到很快乐。尽管每天有上不完的课，做不完的事情，玩不尽的手机和睡不醒的觉，但是我就是开心，我发现实物不一定要理想，适应生活带给你的欺骗，依旧会风雨彩虹。

课程照旧百无聊赖的上着，并没有因为长大一岁而缩减的趋势。不过与大一相比，我们倒是成熟了，也懒惰了。

补足粮仓就成了头等大事，沿着TESCO走上一圈，饼干面包水果零食酸奶快熟面就都OK了。
所以等到身体素质检查的时候，磅秤上的指针不情愿的往右移的时候，自己的眼睛也不会配合着瞪那么圆了。
有觉悟的小伙伴特不约而同地骑脚车，打羽球锻炼，才发现那里早就聚满了热汗淋漓的人类，隐约还发现几张熟悉的面孔。



跟在后面装模做样的苦苦挣扎两小时，然后残喘着回去发誓宁愿不吃也不想再这么遭罪，结果电视剧时间一到又爬到床上开始边看边抚慰一旁寂寞的小嘴。

大学的老师应该是不信佛的，因为他们总是想遍奇招来折腾善良的年轻生命。
我们曾经自编自导自演了一套Animation；模仿过身边的事物创编一段5分钟教育性的录影，天知道其实我就想扮大树下的石头演一出无声无息的内心戏而已。
在一个电闪雷鸣的早晨挤爆的Rapid Penang公车去老人院献爱心，谁不知道我们只是要完成Assignment。一学期三场讲座还是要听满的，读书笔记还是照旧要手写的。

做完这一切的一切，发现成果摆在自己眼前，所有扣在我们手腕的死结都被解开了，那些我们恼怒着给取外号的老师笑起来其实还是蛮亲切的。

我又开始相信高中老师的话了，大学是无畏考试的。因为期末考试前的两星期，即使是学渣也会开启学霸模式。
软磨硬泡加苦苦相逼，最终要来了几十页A4纸的重点，此时各大教室的满座率高达98%，所有学子几乎倾巢出动，其中图书馆等有空调的地方成为纳凉读书的好去处。


大二，我和相机交了朋友。

我不置于用镜头看世界，可是至少我开始用镜头看槟城。
槟城真的好美！

大二的暑假来了。好像比往年的任何一次都要精彩一些。
两个月后又是一条好汉。对新生的加入也没有了当初的热情，对离别的前辈也就是君子之交。大三的学姐开始打折促销，然后下架。

直到大三才自己有小小的成就，顿时才觉得自己终于出人头地了。

大四，总算在大学立足了。八度空间，给了我很大的机会。Malaysian Cultural Day也让我再次光宗耀祖。

带着疑问进入大四，同样也带着珍惜。们在最应该好好相聚的日子里分散忙碌着，实习、论文与考编占据了所有的生活。
这四年就像一场梦，醒了，又回到原点。　
我把所有的东西都带走了，却把青春永远锁在了这里。

有些事不是努力就可以的，
五十块的钞票设计得再好看，
也没有一百块招人喜欢...

一颗热忱之心

 别丢掉野心和欲望 
一种积极状态下的野心和欲望可以使一个人的力量发挥到极至,可以逼得一个人献出一切去排除所有障碍,它们能使人全速前进而无后顾之忧。
保持着一种野心和欲望，不要把它们丢掉。
 


把赞美送给别人
你要知道，每个人都喜欢来自别人的赞美。
只要赞美适时适度，不仅可以消除人与人之间的隔阂，增进彼此之间的情意，更重要的是能让你在交际场上大受欢迎。
要记住：不要吝惜你的赞美，要及时地把赞美送给别人。

要给自己树立目标
我们的人生不能没有目标，没有目标的人生就像没头的苍蝇。
给自己树立目标，竭尽全力向着目标前进，成功人士之所以能成功，是因为他们能够做到这一点。
一个人的目标越大，取得的成绩往往就越大。
给自己树立一个大目标后，还要树立一些小目标，当小目标 一个个达到后，大目标就会达到。

做人要心怀感恩
因为活着，所以我们应该感恩。感恩是一种宽容和豁达，是一种伟大的情操。
世上的一切都值得我们感恩，我们才会生活得更加美好。

感谢各位，不离不弃的支持！感恩～

& thanks for making it possible!

392 is definitely a huge number.

Malaysian Cultutal Day.

by School of Pharmaceutical Sciences.

Steel Wool & Light Doom

 & this is the photo shooting i have longed for. 

Not the best shoot. This was my first time shooting such stunning photo. 
The steel wool light painting!
And the spinner Mr. Winson is leaving to Singapore soon. i was told by the members of the Sun Seeker.

Feel the steam! 

Photo taken along Esplanade (Padang Kota Lama), Penang. 

The Spirit of Basketball. The Light Doom Painting!

A thought of mind (mine)

Today, as I was stepping towards Rapha Children Home again. Alongside with my tou dai zai, Yee Jun, not forgetting her watermelon and grapes bought for the kids. 
I admit that i wasn't that great after all but i spend my holidays doing voluntary work, at a Buddhist Association Temple and also spending time with the kids at the orphanage home. 

And the little kids waved at me frantically through the window of the room. I laughed and waved back.  Although their first target is always Yee Jun, until i decided to took my obese camera out for some shoots, and the kids started to surround me. Thanks to my extralarge camera that caught the attention of the kids. There was instantly a look of surprise and then extreme happiness on the kid’s face just because I waved back to him.  

This reminded me of how, as children, we need very little to make us happy.

What is more rewarding than seeing their ear-to-ear smile? It took me a while to remember their names after few times of visit. Daniel was the first kids i carry & hug. Paul was the first kid gripping my hand and play with. Joy is a potential supermodel and she enjoyed posing infront of my camera. John is the brother of Joy, and they do look alike. My first impression of Penny is that she is the "kid" version of one of my friend. Haha. & many many more of course, like Andrew, Jackson, Kelvin, Joanna etc. Each of them had a unique personality and smile.
If you ask me, what did i photograph at there? i simply just photographed memories! 

Just like a proud doctor, i swayed my labcoat over and it just fit in much more better than the previous one. 

Counselling patient is the reason i ended my break early and flew back Penang rushly on Tuesday. Since when i am so passionate dealing with people? Question marks all over my head. i really don't know since when i started to be serious on what i am doing. 

And i ended my counselling session with a 60 years old aunty as my last patient. Indeed, like i what i said, i enjoy meeting new faces and the sense of fulfillment of being able to help others. In fact, I believe one of the best feelings comes when you realize that you can be perfectly OK and happy without the things you once thought you needed. 

Last but not least, a photo taken for a campaign, promoting a Tabacco Free Campus!

And indeed i did not really chart out my blueprints for my future. But i always has a thought of my own. Haha. Ambitious or Aggressive? Of course, i am just thinking of being special each time. 

The biggest prison you will likely ever live in is your fear of what other people think. So, why get everyone approval?  Don’t let others make you feel guilty for living your life.  It’s YOUR life.  

As long as you’re not hurting anyone else, live it YOUR way.

I'm Mae Yeoh, 22 years old, a final year pharmacy student. Don't play play. LoL.

小心，

不要越過紅線！

原來世界上最醜陋的東西，就是人的嘴巴...

如果你用心聆聽，你會發現，你不知不覺已經當了話題中的主角，沒錯，就是你！
所以認真你就輸了...

樓上，玩不起就別踩進去... 
眼不看為淨，耳不聽也為靜...
但願世界和平...阿門... 上下左右點4下...

一個沉重的上午，闲人组合今天正式散Band...直到约定中的明年复合...

  Kai Xin  Joanne  Zhen Ying  Mae  Ee Siew

Last night was a failed surprise, but me & ZY did really work hard for the last minute attack! Run~

And this morning, she just left Russia and we ended our 2 months semester break with a text. So long & farewell. *Wave

 And i still got my Tou Dai Zai around temple run with the pigeon together with me, before i leave to Penang...
And finally a photoshooting outing at Kuantan this Sunday morning. 
i think Priscilla is on her way back to Kuantan today...
One left and one came. 

Cheers...

 And there goes the KISS principle. 

[K]eep [I]t [S]imple, [S]tupid.

Random shoots. 

Since it is termed random, 

there is no ongoing purpose, 

just simply goes with the urge of doing so. 

Cheers.

A random call, a random movie, 

a random shopping, a random conversation, 

a random present.

That random-ness simply made my day.

Thanks for the random-ness, the chocolate larva cake, the spaghetti, the memories of charity working along the temple & orphanage home, the cheese cake, the Lembing trip, the character cards, the yam cha session, the PeeMak, HK ghost movie part 1&2, Percy Jackson, The Smurfs 2, Ge Mei Liang, the apple pie, the postcard, the burger, the souvenir & the handmade card.

YeeJun, HoayTeng, ZhenYing, KaiXin, Joanne, JiaLi, GaikTian, MongHui & EeSiew. 

  FB kaki: ChiaYing, Will-i-am